Friday, March 19, 2010

Granting Myself Permission

Where did I get the idea that you can only have one BIG dream per lifetime? Who or what put that limiting thought in my head and heart? I think I'd like to dismantle it and send it on its way. No, I KNOW I'd like to do that.

For the past two and a half years I have been letting a dream unfold in my life. A dream that I didn't even know I had. I started belly dancing more than 10 years ago. In fits and starts. I thought I'd NEVER get anywhere with it. I'd always be a novice beginner. But Spirit had different plans. Thank you!

The path in a really quick recap: someone moved to my area offering classes, she started a troupe and invited me to join, she moved, troupe fell apart, no direction, got frustrated, someone planted the seed that I teach, HA! Big pause.

NO way. "I'm not worthy." So my inner critic deemed.

Somehow, somewhere, I pushed through. The recap continues: I offered a class. Women came. I started a troupe. More classes. A studio space. Organized events. Opened a store. And it's not done, I know there's more.

But. I still have a day job. It's not big enough to support me. Will it ever? Can I let go and trust. Okay. I will. I am. But.

But, what if that's not enough? What if I still have other dreams?

"What? Awfully greedy aren't we? You want MORE? Come on. Isn't this more than you could have ever dreamed of in the first place?"

And my intuition, my heart, my soul, says most definitely, "YES, I deserve more!"

Really? No way! This I have a hard time believing.

So for today, I am granting myself permission. Here's what I grant:

I, Tracy Carlton, have permission to have more than one dream. And those dreams can be EVEN bigger!

Right on!

If you haven't signed up for Mondo Beyondo yet, what's stopping you? OMG! This course is knocking my socks off! Thank you Andrea and Jen!


  1. Yeehah! Go, Tracy! Yup, I agree that we have more than one dream in us, and they can be big and bold -- we can have a whole treasure trove of them! I'm starting a new course myself, something like Mondo Beyondo maybe: called You Have Permission. You get the idea :-).

  2. Love it! I have three pages of huge, Mondo Beyondo dreams!

    The more dreams I have the merrier I am ;-)

  3. yes, you deserve the universe!!!

  4. Right on! I have about 5 pages in a spiral notebook from the last go-round, and I still need to write this list. So yes, I join you in this!